Part of a dream I had last week that I thought would be worth sharing...
I was on a road trip with a friend, driving through a landscape of mostly desert hills, like these:
I realized along the way that we had forgotten to pack some important things, like drinking water, and that we hadn't brought nearly enough money to last the whole trip. When I intimated this to her, she seemed unconcerned, and there was a knowing look on her face. In my mind's eye I saw a shallow river running over smooth stones, as if in a forest.
We came to a tourist stop and decided to use the restrooms there. I waited outside in the milieu with some weird sort of luggage while she went first. Still pondering what we were going to do about our lack of supplies, I noticed some spare change strewn across the floor. Knowing that it wouldn't be enough to buy even one bottle of water, I nonetheless picked it up. Then I started noticing small stacks of coins lying around different areas of the center, and picked them up as well. The denominations and numbers of coins grew for each successive stack I found, and I was soon filling my pockets.
I asked one of the employees why I was finding so much money just lying on the ground. From her response I determined that one of the other tourists was distributing his 'piggy bank' of sorts in a kind of egg hunt, just for fun.
I finally came to a stack of $4 gold coins. This took me by surprise and I figured that with such a large denomination, they had to be out of date (unredeemable). I picked one up and read a date range on the face: 19(??)-2028. I knew instantly then that the coins didn't expire until 2028 and was filled with a sense of awe. Then the words formed literally and distinctly in my mind, as if from my friend: "You will always be provided for." Then I woke up.
The entire dream was much longer and more intricate than this; there was a whole earlier half of the dream that I mostly can't remember. At some point, before I began finding the coins, I looked in a mirror and noticed that exactly half of my face was sunburned (the left side). I have no idea what that would mean, but it struck me as being a particularly potent symbol.
The dream comes at a time when my life is changing rapidly, adrift without much identity or direction, but regularly experiencing a sense of intertwined
meaning that is shifting and ever revealing its presence to me in moments of subtle epiphany. The epiphanies rarely have a logical structure, instead presenting themselves as intuitive tapestries of what I call 'emotional flavors' - signatures associated with certain experiences, times, places, people, images, and all manner of Other things. They all fall into sync with each other and what emerges is a coherent story of meaning. The process is so abstract and difficult to describe, but subjectively it
feels like the clearest, purest, most immediate apprehension of truth.
I feel like underneath the surface of my life there's a corresponding world of existence that could hardly be guessed from the appearance of external events and circumstances. There is so much
more to it, extending far into my imagination and fantasies of pure essence, and yet it permeates the very material of this physical experience.
So even though I experience anxiety and loneliness on a daily basis, there's always this thread guiding me through the maze to the next understanding, beckoning me on with all the grace and wisdom of a Goddess who is actually an intimate expression of my own self.
