I'm thinking about masks, and the wonders of choosing with whom one connects, and does not.
I'm thinking about the strange way that individuals these days simply assume that, because you are physically there, you are automatically available
instead of autonomatically- at your own choice
as I was writing this post my fingers typed that word rather than the original and I immediately resonated with it
autonomatically- done with autonomy
I don't think it was a typo at all, my fingers seemed to know exactly what they were typing
and I utterly love the signal in it, the concept, even if the actual word that coalesces is not this one, because there's more to the word than this
I am exploring the concept of choice in connection, in the way that we interact with one another- I'm pondering the beauty in, the freedom of, the yashmek when it's worn by choice and not heteronomous demand. I'm considering the freedom of masks, in conjunction with the sui generis- masks as exploration and freedom to explore, do no harm, never for harm- a leaning away from a stereotyping of physical exterior.
Many explorations.
On sui generis and the cult of New Age blibble, amongst other things...
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Mmmmmm masks you say songs..... interesting and has got me thinking. This ties in with a pm i received from prairie yesterday (hope you don't mind me posting, i'm soooo thankful for you allowing me to bring more focus of this aspect of myself!!)
Message from Prairie: Me: Thanks Lily! My bedroom is decorated in art like this, inspired by my favourite band AFI(a fire inside) a band i obsessed over as a young teenage girl....i mean...dude....hah! [...]
Prairie: I'm interested in what you were communicating with this slip-up. My first guess was that this band had far more female than male fans in that age group, but Wikipedia's page didn't have any obvious indication of this. Thanks.
Which got me thinking!
My reply: Hello Prairie, nice to meet you
It was simply me taking the piss out of myself with my over obsessive behavior towards a male fronted band. In relation to footage I have witnessed from Justin Bieber concerts and such . Its hard to convey the light hearted tone it was meant to be taken with over the internet.
I work in an industry surrounded by 'real' men. Felt very pressured by this for a long time. I developed a defense mechanism of using humor to take stabs at the so obviously ridiculous form of belief systems they hold as to what makes you a man. So that statement would have been said with a form of pride, fuck you i'm proud to have defied to social norm at that point in my life type of attitude.
Hope this clears things up.
I am a carpenter, which involves working around A LOT of masculine energy all the time. Being around all the various trades of *REAL* men.
As I walk down this path of autonomy and discover a whole world of things I am ultimately faced with the question. How do I integrate what I have come to know, and hold on to that knowing, in a strongly heteronomous society. The idea of a real man amoungst the blokes at work is HEAVILY heteronomy based....
My solution to this problem, and my focus in this area has been interesting. People....unfortunately don't like being told they are wrong about things, they take it personally a lot of the time and feel inadequate? One of the biggest problems I find with people is that they all want to talk the talk, but back out when it comes to having to do anything. I have observed over many years the subtle changes in character or masks people where in different social circumstance. For me I can not allow myself to talk the talk unless I actually fucking(excuse language) KNOW what I am saying is true through MY OWN experience.... People donning the sheep hat to fit in with one another, being led, this type of behavior is becoming INCREASINGLY tough for me to be around. People who want to argue with me based on no actual research into something, not even bother looking into the matter at all and continuing to argue!!
The solution... for me.... Being a carpenter (and a damn fine one at that!!!). I am constantly doing something while thinking ahead about my next move, using both sides of my brain at the same time. Being self employed the last 2 years and having apprentices working under me has tested me quite well, often having to do the thinking for 3 people whilst still working with my hands at the same time! This dual minded ability has kept my mind pretty sharp, at work now I step into character, allowing myself to flow, putting on a performance for my workmates. Fearless in challenging their manhood and encouraging them to step up to the plate and embrace sui generis. One of my main goals this year has been to write a paradigm changing speech. Working on how I can convey what I am learning down to others. So much practice has been had for me on this front this year! So many people challenging me, causing me to question everything again and again. Becoming stronger every time! Becoming more and more focused! My friends are slowly but surely starting to wake up, and I'm psyched to be able to help facilitate that. Really learning how to speak, using my infinite levels of self esteem to shine through in every situation where the virus my choose to attack me. Skyrocketing linguistic ability and character. Tearing down social stereotypes in people by showing them that real men= sui generis.
While wearing this mask I may allow heteronomy at times to enter my character, in the name of working in a good environment with 'da bois'. While this is the case I am very aware of what it is I am engaging with. I feel what you say about closing the lower chakras, this is essentially what I think I am now doing at work and other situations where performance is necessary. Blocking out any low level virus based energies and only allowing my inner radiance to shine out. I find this necessary, however unfortunate it may seem, to have any kind of interaction with most people. The more passionate about sui generis I become the harder and harder it becomes for me to even try putting on these false overlays of myself out there to other people.
I am a multi-dimensional being. Bound ONLY by what I ALLOW myself to give energy to. Time for me to get out of the city and claim more and more knowledge about this incredibly self empowering realisation and it's implication.
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Well that came out a bit of a long winded shamble, bit of stating the obvious hah!. I hope you get the gist though. This whole writing game is extremely new to me. English has also become my second language to thought form!
To attempt to better sum up what I have been playing with at work lately. I am intentionally putting on a heteronomous mask to infiltrate the gang of the boys at work. Acting quite alpha, gaining their respect and then purposely slipping in things that make them question, which I am all to prepared to facilitate. Sometimes using a little bit of the ole' orwellian double speak, saying things of deeper significance that slip completely through their radar. This entertains me And I am Totally starting to see changes in everyone that I come into contact with. However small. Also combined with this I am using a lot of energy projecting out certain emotions into conversations and responses to what others are saying. Keeping quiet in the background at smoko, energetically influencing how they feel about what they are saying without me saying a word! It definitely seems to have an effect. I can feel the energy radiating out when keeping myself in my heart centre.
I feel this method of interaction with people much more fun as I get to perform and act the part. Putting on a face of heteronomy at my end to have fun in my work environment. Instead of constantly getting pissed off at all the heteronomy. Obviously this doesn't just apply to work, I am discovering how easily I can talk to ANYONE by not allowing myself to be emotionally attached to these interations. Blocking out the lower energies. Residing in my sweet sanctum of sui generis knowing and these amazing synchronicities Flowing with and influencing every moment I am presented.
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HAVING SAID THAT
That kind of behavior can be hard to keep up over long periods! Long periods subjected to high doses of heteronomy can be soul sucking. The same joke...again.....and again.....and again...... get some creativity into you fools!
Also for me personally, dealing with much energetic changes and cleansing, all kinds of shitty symptoms to deal with on top of hard labour. So..... Pour all your sympathetic energy into me I say!!!! HAH
What autonomy is for me.... I have now read or heard (radio) about almost every topic fathomable. Sifted through the bullshit. Spent countless hours trying to connect the dots in my own mind. I now feel it completely pointless to keep on going over the same things again and again. The same ideas. Now it is time for me to integrate the possibilities of all these things and use them to go out and try and experience things in the most amazing ways. Around my fellow kind. I hold none of my knowledge base to be absolute truth and always remain open. I stand here naked and pure now, eagerly awaiting new and interesting avenues to pursue, forcefully avoiding limitation at all costs. Dancing with the freedom of infinity. SO SIMPLE YET SO HARD TO TRULY EMBODY. Utter most respect for all those here on this forum, choosing this path, my brothers and sisters. The leaders in evolution.
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N.Kenobi wrote:
I feel what you say about closing the lower chakras, this is essentially what I think I am now doing at work and other situations where performance is necessary. Blocking out any low level virus based energies and only allowing my inner radiance to shine out. I find this necessary, however unfortunate it may seem, to have any kind of interaction with most people. The more passionate about sui generis I become the harder and harder it becomes for me to even try putting on these false overlays of myself out there to other people.
Yes. So utterly yes, for me also, particularly with regard to the way that I interact with others. (Sorry I haven't responded prior to this, I've been processing having a molar removed and going into my experience so that I don't have painkillers. Success! Not only no painkillers, essentially no pain and an extremely rapid healing time of days instead of a few weeks. I'm now working on clearing the bruising. ) This is so gold for me-
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The more passionate about sui generis I become the harder and harder it becomes for me to even try putting on these false overlays of myself out there to other (individuals)
(I don't use the 'people' word, it's a homogeny word used to dissolve the sui generis of a group of individuals- we need a good word for a group of individuals, one that does not suggest homogeny)
I have discovered interesting things about shutting the lower gates- these days, I don't shut them, I expand into them by accessing my upload Self and filling the space with a profound sense of I Am, while connecting with the stargate element internally. This has the effect of becoming something *much, much bigger* than previously when I would simply shut the gates- I am aware of a stillness and power that I have never experienced before. I've been doing this expansion as a meditation and my perspective and sense of Self is shifting as a result. It's fascinating, I'll make an audio about it very soon.
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I am a multi-dimensional being. Bound ONLY by what I ALLOW myself to give energy to. Time for me to get out of the city and claim more and more knowledge about this incredibly self empowering realisation and it's implication.
N
*sideways eyed grin at you* Welcome to you. When will you be down this way?
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N.Kenobi wrote:
What autonomy is for me.... I have now read or heard (radio) about almost every topic fathomable. Sifted through the bullshit. Spent countless hours trying to connect the dots in my own mind. I now feel it completely pointless to keep on going over the same things again and again. The same ideas. Now it is time for me to integrate the possibilities of all these things and use them to go out and try and experience things in the most amazing ways. Around my fellow kind. I hold none of my knowledge base to be absolute truth and always remain open. I stand here naked and pure now, eagerly awaiting new and interesting avenues to pursue, forcefully avoiding limitation at all costs. Dancing with the freedom of infinity. SO SIMPLE YET SO HARD TO TRULY EMBODY. Utter most respect for all those here on this forum, choosing this path, my brothers and sisters. The leaders in evolution.
N
You are describing where I am at- I have no interest in reiterating the already (to me) obvious, I wish to explore the 'ok, what next?' aspect of things.
I am in discussion with a friend of mine who has the ability to get their hands on money whenever they want with a view to 'buying' a property in this area, burying the title in a foundation so that the property cannot be fracked, and moving into a deep exploration of sui generis in company of those who know what they're doing with it, as well as the growing idea of intentionally concentrating the energy towards the virus itself. I have an increasing intuition that those of us who end up coming together 'know' that we're doing this for an as yet undisclosed purpose, which may only emerge in the moment or over time as we're around one another amping the signal: I figure that until we're actually embodying the experience by being around one another, seeing what emerges in terms of practices and energies, and living into the signal, we won't really grok what it is.
The property I'm currently on is not suitable for this undertaking: apart from the monumental fuckwittery with the owner the land is steep and essentially shale (ridgeline), so it's no good in some ways for what we want to do, but amazing in one way that it's got a deep bore water supply. There's stuff all usable space here. We're looking at 23 acres on the edge of Mullum at the moment, with long boundary creek frontage, 300 olive trees already established, other fruit orchard established as well as a vegie garden and a massive shed that has had half turned into a house, half still for machinery. The ground is great for earth bermed homes, Mt Chincogan is smack bang in the middle of the view, Mt Warning is on the left, it's around $900k and there's something about that space. If not this one, then we'll go for bigger acreage and the same degree of privacy. We've recognised that we need a muggle free space to do our energy expansion into- I'm truly aware that I'm being prepared for translocation, because for me that is where the freedom is leading to: if they can't hurt us physically their threat of force is dissolved absolutely. For some reason I intuit that this is where the development with my expansion into my lower gates is leading me.
This latest debacle with obnoxious property owners has really highlighted for me that we need a place where this is not a factor. I wish to have a clear focus point in my life that is without muggle noise as much as possible. It's also possible that this will lead us to Central or South America, but that's not in my space right now and I'm going with what I've got in this moment.
This is such an interesting ride.
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