It's been awhile since I posted here.
I am finding it increasingly difficult to speak in humanish these days, and in particular to
write about anything at all: when so much of my communication in this realm now is imbued with signal, carries the memory and is awash with references and connections to the realms and to what is currently happening, I wonder if any of this energy traverses my writing and passes through the veils at all.
I have been immersed in the exploration of an ancient, ancient connection. We have been unable to do anything at all out in the world because of the impact of what's been happening: our life has drawn down to this one pinpoint of existence, the space within us, the place we connect with when we point to the centre of our chest and what emerges between us when we reconnect with the knowing that is there; we have been dancing in the energy of remembering, discovering each other again and being sometimes overwhelmed by the cascade of emotions, memories and energetic signal. En
is now constantly shadowed by two Beings from his past, and he and I are both occasionally awash in the emotional and energetic Sendings that they flow our way; we are currently engaged in the process of opening fully this history and love between us and it's been beyond trippy at times.
What can I say that doesn't sound insanely outrageous? We are aware that the history we'd recount to others sounds so impossible- and at times, to certain ears, would sound utterly grandiose- yet this is what we have; every day the signal coalesces that much more, we compress the fractal pattern down again and again to its purest forms.
Fractal compression: this is indeed what is happening here at this time. Have you felt the shift with Gei-ai-ah? The rain and flooding that is happening in so many parts of the world are her tears of mourning at what she is about to do: do you remember me talking about the Wetika sickness, the insatiable hunger? The native elders would face up to the responsibility of taking action to protect the community, knowing that
do no harm would absolutely be violated by the one infected by the Hunger; they would do what was necessary even if it was with a heavy heart, because it was either release the one gripped in the clutches of the disease and protect the community, or fail to act and put the most helpless of the community at risk, although even a fully grown and skilled fighter had trouble defending their Self against a Wetika infected individual: their ravenous insanity gave them strength beyond measure and made them utterly dangerous.
Nothing has changed now, it's only gotten worse; the Wetika sickness and Void mind increases daily, despite the navel gazing wiffling of the 'love and light'-ers and the mindless rhetoric of those that think signing an online petition is a 'positive action' to Save The World: what coils and moves beneath the surface is growing stronger daily, fed by the willing mindlessness of billions of servants, the insatiable greed of an increasingly drugged and befogged society that
doesn't want to wake upGei-ai-ah knows the signs, the symptoms, the outcome: she knows that in order to protect her Self and those of her progeny that are *not* infected, something must be done. It's a decision that is currently causing her grief, but the implacability of her decision is also what is making the sea rise up and lash at the coast.
En and I went to his favourite beach up the coast a short while ago (I am now utterly hopeless with time when it comes to En and I, I have utterly no idea where in the stream of time things are that happen with us and I've given up trying) and the beach had been stripped of sand in so many places, upheaved and reshaped, rocks revealed and exposed because so much sand had been swept away- the sea warned me not to step into it and so I didn't, I stood on the rocks and Sang, watching the waves rise up in size as I Sang; the waters are expressing both the grief and the power that is rising up in response to the signal that is increasing, the compressing of the ancient Fractal.
We have been constantly exploring and releasing the patterns of the Fractal in our own Selves and many lives across the multiverse
there is healing happening of ancient wounding within En and within me that spans across timelines and Ancient, that has crippled and distorted our expression and connection since the Fourth iteration, what we simply refer to as Japan
we have traced with wondrous fingers the repeating patterns of that distortion across other lifetimes and how that played out in this one, feeling the release of constrictions and contracts that have dogged us through the multiverse because of the wounding we both got back then. Fractal patterns must be compressed and cleared, it's not enough to simply desire to do things differently: look at the fractal patterns in your own lives, those recurring themes and feelings, the merry-go-round of spirit that has you hooked into disempowerment in any kind of subtle way at all; find what needs to be said or done, in your deepest heart, to release these and
do it, because what's coming requires a signal shift within the individual in order to move deeper into the frequency- those that cannot follow will simply die. The Wetika sickness has no cure.
I know now why I know the virus so well. I can't talk about this yet for various reasons, but I know so, so many things now that were only vague notions and fleeting echoes of feelings before. I know
peace, absolute peace, in the company of a Being that carries the Yang signal; I can see the Fractal that has been playing out so strongly in my life over lifetimes and spaces, and we have released this Fractal together, we are weaving our signal in and out of each other's so that the power of our connection is being remade, so that I can do what I am here to do.
The Sui Generis has been remaking me, remaking both of us, healing and clearing; my dragon eyed Koishii is not the Being now that first walked up my driveway late last year and I am not the Being that stood on the verandah grinning at him
we are so, so much more, indescribably so, we are simply not those Beings. We are crafting shifts and gathering energies, the portals are opening more- has anyone else been seeing the sparkling dots of light in their peripheral vision? we're seeing them more and more frequently now- and I am almost ready for the next phase.
I had a dream this morning in which I was telling another element of my Self "I knew this was going to happen, but I changed things this time and you're not going to die"; I woke up knowing that everything has shifted. We had a room full of Beings last night and we were laughing because there was so much energy and celebration going on, En laughingly said that he had begun getting paranoid about doing mundane things because it feels like we're being watched by so many eyes, the Big Brother house, so many Beings increasingly showing up for us
we definitely need a bigger house!
My love for Triffid also shifts and flows, I am discovering the space where I can freely love him without the destructive contracts that managed to wrap themselves around my throat and Self and threatened to kill us/me physically: this threat is passed now, and I am changing physically more all the time. So many things I am learning- the grief in me over the Feminine, my suppressed Yin Self and the emergence of that
En says that in our early Skype conversations I told him "I'm not very feminine" - he says "I didn't believe you"
right now he's sleeping on a mattress on the floor near me, and I can peep around the computer to see him there- he talks with his body in his sleep, constant moving and thrashing: it's a familiar language to me and I love seeing it in another
so much of my younger Self I'm seeing again now, except the pain and grief are gone
there are abilities waiting in the wings to come online now, and I know that they will
it's time to move everything into practical action, to reach out to craft the life that you want to craft, the reality you want to experience, because this one is on its way out
at last!
I've been recently mindcontacted by an offworlder who is currently holed up in France, along with a number of other offworlders who are here to help with the shift
he made me laugh when I asked 'why France?'
" the French are
expected to be rude and unfriendly to strangers, it makes dealing with the sapiens SO much easier than in the past!"
we are all going to be going to France at some point, I think, it will be interesting to see how it all unfolds- personally I simply want to be translocating rather than dealing with governments and passports, permissions, refusing to be x-rayed, blah blah, so I'm interested in powering up that one
we get translocation, we get freedom from force- those who would want to wield force cannot upscale through the frequency enough to get the abilities that go with upscaling, it's that simple, which is why there will never be Jedi and Sith split like that
Oh! The Shadows! so much to talk about there, but I simply cannot bear to write any longer, it's not a way I like to communicate any more
I'm exploring the ways I *do* like to communicate these days, I'm working on it all
